hMm this few days...had been Doing test...tHis Week alone 3 test -_-" STRESS!...2 Project SubmiSsion!
omg..tats VEry Stress....
k..friday went down NPcc...haha...in the canteen i became GOD!...suddenly light Shines on me...hehe...
k went npcc...HAix..I FEEL Lonely!...haix... this sec4 i just started to know them they are gone..haix..sometimes i just feel very very lonely..going back amkss alone...haix...Being a CI can be fun at 1st..but once..u reach 3rd year...as CI things are diffrent...Arg...what to do...
although still got Tze hao..WE ARE TWO COMPELT Diffrent person we Do thINgs Diffrently...yAPpx...
Thiam wei is my junior...hmm actually both of them are my junoir in terms of Experience...What ive gone tru Is FAR more then what they have...
perhaps...thiam wei is experience in bEing a Parade commander..then me..yappx coz he did twice..last year ROD and this year NDP..not bad...
But Tze Hao. what did he gone tru? Just the cadet inpector course?...
im not saying any thing bad...as in i just feel that they should listen to my advise as a Senior CI.ive been Tru CII course..HQ events NAtional events like every Year?...Adventure course...
Im saying This coz we everytime Argue on things...k....i admit I DUN LOOK LIKE A CI AT ALL. & I DUN DRESS & LIKE A CI.
hAIx...now im walking on a 2 way path...NPCC...or PErforming arts...
You CAnt Expect me to Cut short my HAir like secondary sch standard and be a Model Singer OR ACTER Rite?! WTH who Would want me?
Somemore i Wan To gRow my HAir lOnger! HightLIGHT!
I WANT TO tEach!...i want to GUILD MY JUNIORs!
I'm Lost...haix.."walk left also wrong, walk right also wrong"
actually i can just abandone NPCC..its not impt at all...I HAVE NO FRiends there...they are my cadets.
haix i think im wrong...I cant be the SAme Old Edwin(1 year ago) like last time..many things had Change...
Aniway..now im a bad CI...why? coz the image ive shown them...im ashame of myself...Im a CI yet....im not showing the RIGHT IMAGE!
aniway..tmr will be a tiring day for me...(2.30pm to 7.30pm NPCC) && (7.30pm to 9.30pm Unplug Singing Performance Rehesal) && (MId nite Clubbing with my DAnce group)...
